I Have Severe OCD | The Secret Life of Lele Pons
Lele Pons
It’s no secret Lele Pons is one of the most successful social media icons with over 40 million followers and considered an internet trailblazer for her contributions to various platforms. Known for her unfiltered videos, candid humor and crazy stunts, Lele’s storytelling arch takes a more serious tone as she opens up to the world with her deepest secret. Through access to private moments, emotional interviews and never seen before footage, Lele reveals her life long struggle with OCD among other mental health conditions and doesn’t shy away from the most intimate details of her battle.
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Produced by: Shots Studios
Directed by: Alicia Zubikowski

  • Lele Pons
    Lele Pons

    Thank you everyone for supporting me. I hope you enjoy this docu-series and learn about OCD, Tourettes, and other things. LIKE the video if you watch it! I'll see you next Tuesday for episode 2 :)

    • Laura Schmidt
      Laura Schmidt

      I am your biges fan lele!

    • Eric

      I love you lele pons

    • Jady Clovis
      Jady Clovis

      I love u Lele

    • Sandra Apun
      Sandra Apun

      I loveee youuuu leleeee❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • Chibi Alpaca
      Chibi Alpaca

      Love this video lele

  • Mochi Bubblie Bear
    Mochi Bubblie Bear

    Lele stay strong we love you boo❤️❤️❤️

  • Aysia Carty
    Aysia Carty

    Ur unique lele iam a huge fan

  • David Woodward
    David Woodward

    I think you are very beautiful inside and out and I hope you celebrate all you have accomplished. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • Shawna cavin
    Shawna cavin

    I am praying for you 🙏 because I've been through the same thing. It's not fun at all.

  • Bel G.
    Bel G.

    Lele, you’re beautiful, brave, smart, funny and REAL!!! Real people are hard to find in this world. Don’t change🌻💛

  • Cassidy Campbell
    Cassidy Campbell

    Thank you for sharing this and advocating for mental illness and ocd. I thought you were beautiful before but even more so now

  • Mochi Bubblie Bear
    Mochi Bubblie Bear

    I- never knew lele had ocd I’m so sorry lele

  • Avocado Emmy
    Avocado Emmy

    this sounds alot like something i do im lowkey scared now

  • Maisha Khan
    Maisha Khan

    Seeing your tears I felt so bad lele.....I really love u.... And it hurts knowing u like that... Because all I known that u was so cheerful

  • Sierra Harding
    Sierra Harding

    I have ocd to!!

  • Caiden Clark
    Caiden Clark

    Lele pons you are the best one I ever seen let people the f***** up do the best of the best and keep on making shows please for me that's my world

  • Taylor unicorn
    Taylor unicorn

    It is ok

  • Human Gotcha life fnaf
    Human Gotcha life fnaf

    You and Hannah stocking are my favorite IRsoftrs

  • The Inspirational G.A.P
    The Inspirational G.A.P

    is bad humor another???

  • Thiago Trigo
    Thiago Trigo

    Jesus loves you and He wants to set you free. He can do it and is willing to. Psalm 1<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="183">03:3</a> “He who forgives all our sins and heals all our diseases”. Just be open and believe with your heart and ask Him and He will do it! Bless you, love you!

  • Sutisan

    Keep your negative energy away if you don’t have nothing nice to say don’t say it she’s human too and as humans we’re supposed to help each other not bring each other down may we be glad that she’s here her very existence is a blessing

  • Penny Rose
    Penny Rose

    I know you from your videos and you have a great talent, I know nothing really about OCD, I hope you find something that works for you. I wish you only the best honey, stay strong. 💟✝️☮️ Penny

  • B Souza
    B Souza

    I have severe anxiety/depression and I am so very very sorry that you have OCD. I understand suffering and my heart ❤️ breaks for you. May God bless you and give you relief. This is what I pray for every day. Love you Lele and hope you find peace. Never give up!


    I wonder if there's a nutritional deficiency because the under eyes look yellow

  • Gabrelle Goldsmith
    Gabrelle Goldsmith

    wow Lele I'm so sorry you're going through this

  • Marcos Pacheco
    Marcos Pacheco

    You have my prayer you can get through this :)

  • Hello Lovely
    Hello Lovely

    I had it similar but not as bad..and God healed me. He is the ultimate healer! doctors & medications can only do so much. Seek God & pastors and churches Lele Pons he can heal you!!

  • Alaa Arab
    Alaa Arab

    You are so brave. I feel very bad for you because you have to deal with OCD and depression. I hope you get better soon.

  • Freduardo Tayo
    Freduardo Tayo

    I have severe anxiety. I feel her pain. Stay strong.

  • Boop

    I feel so awful for her. Mental illnesses don’t just disappear when you’re rich/famous. Her struggles are real, and it’s so awful how she’s been treated by the internet. Just because someone’s humor is different than yours, it does NOT give you the right to mercilessly bully them.

  • Mr. Jackson
    Mr. Jackson

    Things are more of a secret if you don't post them on youtube

  • Lori Hudson
    Lori Hudson

    I want you to know I completely understand because I have it too. You can get better. I did! If you would like to talk to me please let me know. I would like to be there for you❤

  • Arie Goston
    Arie Goston

    We love u lele

  • Arie Goston
    Arie Goston

    😥😥😥um so srry I hope u get through everything

  • Arie Goston
    Arie Goston

    Lele is a natural and she is my favorite I just feel bad for this if I was in her shoes I would do the same

  • Jayelle Tandy
    Jayelle Tandy

    I feel so bad for her like this is so deep I not joking I crying this is so sad... 😖

  • German Leo Gerling
    German Leo Gerling

    No se quien es, ni que tiene. Yo le doy igual, está re linda

  • Hermila Cantu
    Hermila Cantu

    Lele I’m so sorry for you I wish I was there for you to help you to make you happy to make you like to open your doors your stuff and you don’t want to touch it like I can do it I just wish I was there for you and and I heard it hurts I love you Lele

  • Ráfi Solomon
    Ráfi Solomon

    <a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="1250">20:50</a>

  • vanessa wright
    vanessa wright

    whoever dislike this have no heart

  • Izzy

    I’ve been in therapy for about 4 years now and I’m finally getting ocd under control now I still have to do some rituals but it’s definitely better. Thank you for talking about this and bring awareness ocd is more than cleaning

  • Daniel Foxworthy
    Daniel Foxworthy

    Stay strong. Please be safe.

  • Folsch29

    I am having more confidence in my self cause I have OCD

  • Jaylon Boyd
    Jaylon Boyd

    If you don’t like lele Pons fight me bout it

  • Fandom Love
    Fandom Love

    You know I never understood what OCD ment. And I didn't really like lele sometimes and then sometimes I thought she was cute and funny. What I'm trying to say is I appreciate this vid and her telling her story. And it gives me a new perspective on her side. And you have to admit even if you don't like someone you have time admit when they are strong in their vulnerable moments and open up. I totally respect her for this and everyone else who has to go through anything like this, and to anyone who is sharing their story, thank you.💙

  • BetH -
    BetH -

    I can relate to you... I also have OCD and I have to do everything at least 4 times, 2 is a bad number for me. Technically I haven't been diagnosed so I'm deciding whether I say I have it or not... anyway I don't know what else I have but whenever I'm focused on a certain sound it starts to yell at me so yeah- Edit: I dont think I need therapy because I don't have it as bad as her so-

  • Abby N
    Abby N

    I had ocd as a kid, I teared up at the video of her with her therapist omg 😭. I feel for people that struggle with this

  • Folsch29

    I feel so bad 4 u and it is so funny

  • Malcolm allen Mercado
    Malcolm allen Mercado

    I'm crying for you plz be okay

  • Holly rife
    Holly rife

    Girly u just got yourself a new subscriber💛

  • Holly rife
    Holly rife

    I feel like we all just needed to see something like this. we would just mindlessly watch this super fun girl, not even knowing what she was going through. I respect her so much more. She is so strong and lele i know you can fight it.

  • Maricel Yeates
    Maricel Yeates

    Cuando vi tu historia, vi la mía porque desde chica que tuve toc y los sigo teniendo. Entiendo cómo te sentías porque siento lo mismo. Me alegra que pudiste y sigas saliendo de eso porque convivir con toc te desgasta la cabeza y eso me pasa. Te conocí hoy por primera vez y sos una gran mujer. Sigue adelante Lele!!!


    Omg lele I'm sorry that u have to go through all of this and I really respect u even more than before bcs u had enough strength to tell ur story 😢😢😢💔 plz be strong girl u can survive

  • Paige Elliott
    Paige Elliott

    I have ice and I'm 12 and my mom does not get it I have to clean every day I hat it even when I'm sick and I have to make stuff even and my paper has to be neat if I itch left are I have to itch my right

  • alicia moreno
    alicia moreno

    I am a big fan of lele and I would never bully her

  • Nishka Prasad
    Nishka Prasad

    Lele pons you are so entertaining and funny 😂 keep it up you are amazing ♥❤💕👍😊😎😎😎😎😎

  • Guadalupe Rodriguez Zahn
    Guadalupe Rodriguez Zahn

    Porque ponen dislikes a Lele, lo que ella habla es algo muy importante, para ella. Entiendanla

  • Rjo Playz
    Rjo Playz

    I have ocd too. I am glad i am not alone

  • Harry Wolf
    Harry Wolf

    This is the first time I think I've related to someone about something like this. I have this thing where I fear certain objects, actions, foods, and so on because I feel like they are bad luck and they affect the future positively or negatively. I always just thought I was crazy so I Fr have never told anyone, but now it makes sense. It's bad enough for me to the point where It will look like an addiction to an outsider, but addiction to something they don't understand, but it eases as life goes up. Now it makes a lot more sense.

  • Kiera Michelle Brennan
    Kiera Michelle Brennan

    Thank you for bravely sharing your story as I am someone who struggles with OCD and ADHD as well and this video empowered me to share more of my story! Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

  • Thatgirl Shey
    Thatgirl Shey

    It’s really hard how I’ve been laughing to all her videos like she’s funny but it’s painful how she hold in for a decade it hurt really much. I will love you for life Lele thank you I still watch and support ur video love you 😘.

  • Sherman Williams
    Sherman Williams

    Lele I want to say that u are very special and no matter what anyone says u are important to millions of people we love just the way u are

  • iilovehearts Girl
    iilovehearts Girl

    Leledon’t listen to others you will be ok I love you❤️🥺

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  • rosi1al

    I am so sorry Lele.. 😭😭😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

  • Mariela Rodriguez Lill
    Mariela Rodriguez Lill

    Lele doyou

  • Mariela Rodriguez Lill
    Mariela Rodriguez Lill

    Lele doyou speak in english

  • Joe Dan
    Joe Dan

    damn, ion remember asking

  • bonek350

    I think I've heard every one of my coworkers say they have OCD. If only they really knew what OCD really is. Look at what this poor lady has to deal with.

  • I AM JEM
    I AM JEM

    Lele Pons please don't let negative comments gets you down, cause in life you're always gonna have good and bad opinions and there are many heartless people in this world. Just continue to be a great and a funny person. And always remember in everything that you do, someone might not like it. Turn your negative comments into a positive motivational energy it works all the time.

  • Andres Figueroa Palos
    Andres Figueroa Palos


  • Itz -Lil_Pup-
    Itz -Lil_Pup-

    It's ok, just keep praying and have faith

  • V1Gibby

    Read “The Power of Now”

  • Random얀얀

    Do your thing✨ Don’t let the haters get you..It really Hurts to see You suffer like this😭We love You so much your vines and love trough out the world💖

  • Salvon TV
    Salvon TV

    Imagine how perfect everything would be if everyone had OCD?

  • keke vlogs
    keke vlogs

    Lele I am 12 years old and I have looked up to you since I was 7 and I still look up to u like when I was having a bad day u made me happy . You r great in every way you try to be the best u can and that is what I love about you ❤️❤️❤️😁😁😁

  • It’s Alejandra E.
    It’s Alejandra E.

    God can heal you from that Lele. There is nothing else you need but him. There’s is a void in you that only him the king 👑 of kings can only fill and his name is Jesus. The one that died on that cross for me and you and everyone reading this.

    • Alyssa

      It’s Alejandra E. Sorry to break it to u but god doesn’t magically “heal” mental disorders... medicine and therapy does, and even then it only helps to a certain extent...

    • It’s Alejandra E.
      It’s Alejandra E.

      Seek him and you will find him.

  • C CM
    C CM

    As an artist, I get it, you want what you do to be the best of its kind. But then you eventually realize, meh, it is what it is but I myself am great on my own independent of my talent. Hope you can find the good side of being independent from the talent and from the art. Just enjoy being . :) It took me many years to find that appreciation of enjoyment away from the identity, but it exists, and it's pretty darn nice I can say

  • Louis Ké
    Louis Ké


  • Sharon Rodgers
    Sharon Rodgers

    Whos finna get shot

  • Sharon Rodgers
    Sharon Rodgers

    U are inspiring strong funny

  • Radio Demon
    Radio Demon

    3 min in i already subscribed even with all this u look like a really awesome person i may never heard of you but i can already tell u look and are a wonderful person and i am glad that you have people who support you through it all

  • Ameerah Steele
    Ameerah Steele

    Lele I’m here for you whenever I’m down you make me so happy and u love how your so strong!💜💜 hang in there💜

  • Mea Redcay
    Mea Redcay

    Dear Lele, I pray for you. I really really hope that you are ok. I have no idea how you are feel but i hope that you are getting the care for your OCD.